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In Memory- Shinedown

05:19 Oct 31 2009
Times Read: 752


Some of the ugliest things took the longest time to make

And some of the easiest habits are the hardest one's to break

And I'm not asking for value nor the pain

But I am asking

For a way out of this lie



Because I can't wait for you

To catch up with me

And I can't live in the past

And drown myself in memories



Welcome to nowhere and finding out where it is

And fixing your problems and starting over agin

Your feeding your ego

With what you can see outside

And your killing yourself

For not speaking your mind



Because I can't wait for you

To catch up with me

And I can't live in the past

And drown myself in memories



In memory



I wonder why you make believe

You live your life straight through me

I cannot understand why

You question me and then you lie

I will not justify your way's

I cannot show you an escape

I do not know you anymore

I never knew you anyway



Because I can't wait for you

To catch up with me

And I can't live in the past

And drown myself in memories



Cuz I can't wait



And I can't live in the past

And drown myself in memories



In memories

In memory

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04:45 Oct 31 2009
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Some questions are best left unanswered...


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03:02 Oct 30 2009
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Apparently I fucked up today. I forgot a small detail and I missed and worried about someone because of it and apparently that's wrong. Well fuck me for feeling. I can't do anything right huh? Thanks world, for my fucking up talent, however will I repay you?


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03:13 Oct 27 2009
Times Read: 768


And so I was teased with the light of the gods. The warm hot embrace of the sun will slip from my cold brittle fingertips again. Why? Why must you jerk it away from my hand right before I grasp it to claim it for my own? *sighs and returns to his fetal position*


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02:37 Oct 27 2009
Times Read: 771


Maybe there is a hope. Maybe this small microscopic ray of light peircing my darkness will last. Maybe I may see the sun again. Ah, the glorious sun. How I miss it's warm glow. It's beautiful light. How I miss it's sweet embrace.


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03:57 Oct 26 2009
Times Read: 780


..........Here we go again. *gets ready for war*


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03:03 Oct 26 2009
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..........I just want it all to end..............


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02:42 Oct 26 2009
Times Read: 784


So now I wait. I wait for you. I wait for us and I wait for what we could have been. It's strange to feel this calm. This numb. It's the calm before the storm. Before the waves sweep me up and lose me. I'm lost already. Alone, scared and trembling. I'll live but I won't be the same. I'm a shell of a man. A husk. Welcome Empty feelling. It seems you've come home once again...


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Erased

17:26 Oct 25 2009
Times Read: 787


And so the ultimate pain must come to all eventually. The cold dark sting of reality must set in at some point and I must sadly silently sit by and watch the world unfold without me. My one, my only my tragic demise must be envoked as it as been set in the stones from the ages before. Yet in the shadows I still linger unable to move on, the epic abyss swallowing all but me while I watch the only one I've ever loved erase me from her life. Tragic, unbelievable, unrelenting and undeniable. I've never had anyone make me feel so whole yet incomplete, so joyful yet enveloped in sorrow, so loved yet hated and so important yet meaningless. I guess I know where I stand now. Goodbye world. Reaper? I'm waiting.


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16:47 Oct 25 2009
Times Read: 790


Love. Overused, over sought, and overrated. When the people who claim love act in ways that show they do not, what are we to believe? When someone uses one of your fears to lash back and strike you out of the blue just because they're pissed how are you supposed to react? Especially when that very person has promised (I hate that word) Countless times that they'll do better? That they'll never use your doubts, fears, insecurities against you? You lie. You lie and I hate it. I hate being the one who's always hurt. I hate being the one who's always in pain and I hate looking into your eyes while you hurt me. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of the way you act when you're mad and I'm sick of the way you think you're so fucking awesome when you're nothing but an egotistical narssistic vile mean vengeful hateful person. You tried to warn me when we first got together but I thought love would show you that it's not hard to change. That love would show you that it's okay to be you and you don't have to act so tough but love showed you nothing. All love is to you is another way to hurt someone. Thanks for all your suffering you've caused. Thanks for all your painful memories. Thanks for all the pain I'll live with until I'm dust. Where's the vicodin and sleeping pills? This world is done.

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01:10 Oct 25 2009
Times Read: 797


I'm done. No more games, no more retries and I'll be damned if I'm Mr. Nice guy. You wanted an arrogant egomanic? Well honey, you've bit off more then you can chew. You've created a monster, unleashed a demon and brought the wrath of hell unto this planet. I hope you know what you've caused! Are you ready!?


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Monster-Skilet

02:57 Oct 20 2009
Times Read: 817


The secret side of me, I never let you see

I keep it caged but I can't control it

So stay away from me, the beast is ugly

I feel the rage and I just can't hold it



It's scratching on the walls, in the closet, in the halls

It comes awake and I can't control it

Hiding under the bed, in my body, in my head

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?



I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster



I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster



My secret side I keep hid under lock and key

I keep it caged but I can't control it

'Cause if I let him out he'll tear me up, break me down

Why won't somebody come and save me from this, make it end?



I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster



I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster



It's hiding in the dark, it's teeth are razor sharp

There's no escape for me, it wants my soul, it wants my heart

No one can hear me scream, maybe it's just a dream

Maybe it's inside of me, stop this monster



I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I hate what I've become, the nightmare's just begun

I must confess that I feel like a monster



I feel it deep within, it's just beneath the skin

I must confess that I feel like a monster

I've gotta lose control, he something radical

I must confess that I feel like a monster



I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster

I, I feel like a monster


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04:30 Oct 19 2009
Times Read: 823


Where's the fucking gun? Give me a fucking knife. I'll end this mother fucking war tonight. And then you can be happy.


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06:55 Oct 16 2009
Times Read: 830


And the beginning of the end starts today...


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Armand
Armand
21:19 Oct 16 2009

no it doesnt we'll work it out





 

07:52 Oct 07 2009
Times Read: 837


So much for ending the war........


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Armand
Armand
05:08 Oct 08 2009

it has ended :)





 

Uprising- Muse

03:44 Oct 07 2009
Times Read: 843




Paranoia is in bloom,

The PR transmissions will resume,

They'll try to push drugs that keep us all dumbed down,

And hope that we will never see the truth around

(So come on)

Another promise, another scene,

Another packaged lie to keep us trapped in greed,

And all the green belts wrapped around our minds,

And endless red tape to keep the truth confined

(So come on)



They will not force us,

They will stop degrading us,

They will not control us,

We will be victorious

(So come on)



Interchanging mind control,

Come let the revolution take it's toll,

If you could flick a switch and open your third eye,

You'd see that

We should never be afraid to die

(So come on)



Rise up and take the power back,

It's time the fat cats had a heart attack,

You know that their time's coming to an end,

We have to unify and watch our flag ascend



They will not force us,

They will stop degrading us,

They will not control us,

We will be victorious


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05:36 Oct 06 2009
Times Read: 847


I can't win. I always lose. I can never get ahead and no one understands me. That's the very defination of Emo huh? So now I ask you all this. Aren't we all emo sometimes? Aren't we all alone? I miss not feeling so scared. So alone. I miss when I had someone who cared. Someone who I could turn to. Now all I know is war. War and violence and shadows. Karma comes back full force. Life makes you feel horrible only to make you feel great only to make you lose those things and feel worse then before. Thanks life. For all you've done....


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05:21 Oct 06 2009
Times Read: 848


What is left? Where do you go? What on earth is there when the person you love wants nothing to do with you? What is left? What the fuck is left for me!?!?


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05:38 Oct 05 2009
Times Read: 852


Home is where your heart bleeds...


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07:54 Oct 04 2009
Times Read: 862


I'm dense. Did you guys know that? I'm fucking dense. I'm dense. The ONE AND ONLY PERSON I have ever loved just called me dense. Wow. So much for "Until death do you part" so much for "For better or for worse" so much for all that. No one I've ever been with has ever questioned my intelligance. How fucking sad is it that the one person I care about would? Fuck all you guys, I'm going on Vacation.


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Armand
Armand
08:02 Oct 04 2009

you rather fucking come here then talk to me fine, youll get your vation enjoy the rest of your life.





JustinDupree
JustinDupree
22:40 Oct 04 2009

I'm dense remember? I probably got this confused with messenger. We dense people make silly mistakes like that.





 

05:09 Oct 04 2009
Times Read: 865


So you toss me aside like a broken toy because you've had enough of me? You cast me aside because I'm not fun anymore? Because I'm not as cheerful as I used to be? Because I've felt the pain of the Gods and I've survived it? Because I've a slightly hardened heart? Wow. True love really does hurt huh? True love is a Goddamned killer...


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